I started a pregnancy journal at the first of my pregnancy but that didn't last as long as I thought. So I am now using my blog as somewhat of a personal journal through this pregnancy, and I am sorry if any one thinks it's too personal but I want to remember as much as I possibly can!
I had my weekly Doctors Appointment yesterday. Everything looks great he said. I have made progress in the last week which he says is a good sign but he doesn't see this baby coming early what so ever since it's my first, but he said he could be wrong!
Tyler was quite bummed out when I told him the news and told him he just now needs to plan for the latest time possible. That way he won't be disappointed and will be more excited when it actually happens!
I am now...
Dilated to a 1
70% Effaced
-1 Gestation. (I need to get to a 4 to give you an idea)
I have REALLY enjoyed the Dr's I chose. They really fit my personality and I always leave on a high! They really sit and talk with me and listen to ALL my CRAZY concerns!! They have been so great! I was even more excited after my Dr. told me I can start drinking Diet Coke this week when I get a headache (I have had at least one headache almost everyday for 2 weeks now!) My cute Dr. even rubbed my sickly swollen feet for a min when he saw them. He couldn't believe how swollen they are with such great blood pressure results! He PROMISED me they would go down! =0)
Last night I found myself sitting in Braxton's room in the rocking chair just staring and holding my belly I don't know how long I was there for It was around 11 and I was half asleep) but I am guessing a while from Tyler's reaction. The tears were just flowing! More happy and overwhelmed tears I would have to say! I just want the best for this little guy. I can't believe all the emotions that go into a pregnancy and all the hormones you REALLY can't control! I guess it's just because I can't think of a time in my whole life where I have wanted anything as bad as I want this child! I remember the day I found out I was pregnant & How I just wanted to have him that day! I Couldn't believe I would have to wait 10 months!! Now that it is just about here I never thought I would have all these anxious, nervous, happy, over joyed etc. feelings.
From day one I have been so positive about the whole labor experience and it actually gave me an adrenalin rush when I thought about it! Now... I am not sure where all these feeling are coming from. Ha ha ha!!
I now still find my self worrying a lot and getting myself all worked up about things but I then look around his room and try to imagine this little baby sleeping in the crib or picture bathing him and getting him ready in ALL the cutest clothes hanging in the closet. It's then when something so small will hit me and I just get those butterflies! I don't think there is any better calling in the world then to be a MOTHER! I seriously can't wait to have him in my arms and truly feel those feelings ALL mom's talk about!
I have completed work for the month with my nightly at home job so I am now pushing my self like crazy running around the town trying to cross off my mile high list TO DO! I am still planning on him coming late & I definitely need the time! I am planning on having the house put together by Next Saturday so don't hold me to it but that's when I plan to put the requested pictures up of our new place! Wish me luck in getting it all done!!
On my mark, Get set. GO!! =0)
